once again the feeling came..i,nabilah, am very disappointed with myself. i can never be satisfied with what i have..wait, what am i really holding on into in the first place? its more like im living my life as it is with no goals, no happiness, NO PURPOSE. i tried to sttay strong but really where will this bring me? its not liemi enjoy being sad and lonely all the time.. but i really cant sense any happiness anymore.. they say good things come to those who wait..and with all this little strength im left, im still waiting for something good to happen.